Too many of the Wiccan brothers and sisters are not sure what you should be doing during the new moon. I’m sorry for the way of my blogs and the direction they have been going. I am so in love with the rest of the world. I’m not able to comprehend the volume of this life. As soon as I turn it down and go live in the country, I get bored and I need to move back to the city. I’m so happy to be bored and then I am dying to get out of here and hop on a city bus to anywhere. I’m going to do the right thing. Brightest blessings, Byrony Coffin.
Merry meet my fellow Wiccan brothers and sisters. How are you on this glorious day? I’m hopeful that I make it through the trouble in my heart. I’m confused about something really important to me. To know your own heart and to not understand the heart of the one you’re in love with is truly difficult to bear. In the mean time, I have to wait for the mail man daily and hope. I am losing faith in him. I am losing faith in my ability to hang on. I’ve sent 3 letters of my own and I am praying that he loves me enough to end my suffering and sorrow at the loss of him. I wish I was stronger than I am. I feel so weak and powerless over him and the situation. Please let me be free of this agony and move forward in my life. How hard do I have to fight for the right to live with someone in my life who isn’t a fraud? Who is in love with me as well? I have been alone for a long time. I’m lonely and I wasn’t sure if I should express my true feelings for him in the way of things. I know that I may contain privileged information about him, information that I would never give to anyone else no matter how hurt I am. We were friends first and we’ll remain friends if I can get over the love thing. I can only hope that I am able to be over it soon because it really hurts. Brightest blessings to all of you. Byrony Coffin.
This is Van Gogh's Skull Smoking Cigarette from 1885.
Goddesses of the Celtic Pantheon I need your help. I’m so confused about this life. How do you figure out what someone’s feelings are when you can not get a message from that person? I am checking the mail box every day and sometimes they’ve got a few pieces of mail, but it is never for me? Doesn’t he understand that I am waiting for him to send word that he is okay? I’m waiting to find out if I am wasting your time and mine? I’ve been feeling played in this situation and I don’t like the feeling of misery that it’s bringing me. To wonder how someone else is feeling stinks. I am hoping that no one ever has to see this extubated sense of the bad feelings for someone and it’s hard not to feel a little used and abused by this man who is the love of my life. I’m sure that I can get over it. I’m resilient and then some. I am more than a realist and I feel like a fool for putting myself in a place where I can get hurt. But hurt fades away and then healing begins. I’m always going to survive the pain. I am, after all, a survivor. Who isn’t? Anyway I guess I am going to move forward with my life and try to forget the whole thing. I may love him, but love won’t kill me. Resilience is the key to recovering from heart-break. Brightest blessings to all of you. Kristen Leigh.
I’m in Love. You don’t know what I have been thinking as of late. Goddess help me. I could work a spell but I would like a little magic without magick. Does that sound like a reasonable request for Love? I think it should be. What if I get hurt? Well I probably will in the end. If every thing is perfect for the rest of my life with my man, who is amazing and special. I am going to be hurt someday. He’ll die or I will and I am old and sick. One of us is bound to be in some kind of emotional pain. I Love him so much that I am doing something stupid, I’m telling the world and I hope that Spider Loves me as well. Brightest blessings.
Well greetings and salutations my fellow Wiccan brothers and sister’s. It’s truly Byrony Coffin, or the “mistake” Kristen Greener. I know that my site has been compromised and I don’t really want to change anything that has been posted on my site no matter how bad it may have been or what it may have said. A friend of mine got angry with me and I hurt her. She is my friend and I’ve been speaking with her for months and I love her no matter what it is that was said because I forgive her and hold no ill will against her in any way. I hope that no one was personally offended by anything said in my name. I am positive that she is upset about the whole thing. I am trying to get a hold of her as we so speak. I am going to talk about that today. Forgiving my friend of years of being human. I am actually flattered by the extent of her fury. Not to many people would be that furious about our particular disagreement with one another. She, I’ve come to discover, is an amazing person of many facets. She’s a student at University and has an amazing man who loves her dearly and I am so glad that we’re friends who respect one another. Plus she’s intelligent beyond what one could hope for in a friend. I am lucky to have been a friend of hers. She has a job and loves to talk to me and tries to find the time to do so daily. I’m lucky to have such an amazing friend. I hope you all find yourself a few peep people in this life who love you enough to go a little bit out there to see if you are paying attention to the right things in life, like the people who matter. My friend Cassandra matters to me. Brightest blessings to you Cassandra and everyone else who happens to read this blog and has a great few, like me, to call friend. Till next time. Byrony Coffin.
Greetings and salutations my fine Wiccan and other friends. I am a lucky girl. I have to do the wheel of the year for my coven. I am currently a student of Ecletic Paths Coven, we practice at Covensted or the home of Owl Phoenix and her husband. She studied in Ecletic paths Wicca and he is a firm believer of Pan. Or Egyptian Wicca. So we have a merry mix of folks who study whatever path they want. Which is great so my problem is the wheel of the year. and I need to find out what is the dark time and what is the light time of the wheel. When the harvesting begins and the crops die and the sun leaves the sky early and the light when we begin to plant and things begin to grow and we prepare for the harvesting of our crops. Please let me know if you don’t understand because it isn’t hard to figure out what the light and dark times mean in the olden days. Crops and such. But it befuddles me that I cannot figure out our Wiccan holidays with the cycle of the crops. I am trying to get over something like a sickness. It is rage. Have you ever felt gut renching rage? Well it is hard to do any kind of project when your mind is in the gutter with rage. So I’ve been told a hundred times what Samhein pronounced Sowenn, is and what the dark times are and I still can’t remember them. I just got off the phone with a good coven mate and he told me and he also told me that anything with a mas at the end of it is the Christian version of a word. Is that crazy or what. Llewellyn’s Press is usually very good to us Wiccans and would never print a false hood. That is just the way it is. So I go to the witches bible and find out how to spell Lammas the right way with the right word and it sounds like something Hitler flew over England and dropped bombs from. I do not understand how the hell I am going to put the dark times and light times together with how I’ve made my wheel. I used blue and black construction paper with white wedges and I need to find a way to put some kind of thing on this wheel that reminds me of what the holiday means to me. For Yule I have a really beautiful angel and for the other seven sabbats I have no idea what to use. I am going to do the best I can and next week we are meeting at Covensted to work on our wheel of the year. I am also supposed to make a wheel of the year events calendar for my Book of Shadows. This is where I put my spells and I use either dragon’s blood or dove’s blood ink so that it is perfect. I still have yet to put my spells in my book of shadows. I am going to put my first one in when this project of mine which has nothing to do with the wheel of the year is finished. I have some herbs to find and a small art project to do and my candles are on the way and I have to stuff and bind and sew and grind and go to the graveyard and get my dirt. That is another project all together. I must focus on my wheel of the year but my other project, the one I need to use to quell my rage, is my main focus. I even have some herbs to grow. Crazy huh? If you read my prior post about herbs and Elizabeth Anna’s Old World Garden then you too can find herbs and get them started for you so you never have to find them again. The only problem with my herb garden is that I am afraid I am going to kill my cat on accident so I’ll grow her some catnip and she’ll have her own little herb in the garden she can eat. Anyway do you see my problem? Rage and a prior project. You need to do this before you can do that. I have a lot to do to finish my project that has been going to make me feel like a cat in catnip to coin a phrase. No More Rage. All gone and done with. I will get this project done so I can work on my wheel of the year. Maybe I should stop Covensted and get my loose ends tied up and then begin again. What do you think? Should I keep trying to study my craft and work on the wheel of the year and my Sabbats spells, food, and craft project, or should I stop trying to study with others and go out on my own and figure out what is killing me inside? I hope to hear from someone who will at least give me some advice and let me know how I should deal with this. I still plan to blog about Wicca and how I work with it and how to do things like make potions brews oils and soaps and other things you need for rituals spells and where to find things that may make you life easier but am I doing the right thing or am I half assing one thing when another occupies my time? Blessed be. Byrony.
Merry Meet my fellow Wiccan’s I am happy to say I broke out my Calligraphy Pens and Tools and began to write. I am just writing spells and names right now I have a prosperity candle to light tonight. It is the last night I have to burn it, I should have burned it sooner but I waited till the Blue Moon started and I’ve lit it for as long as I could stand to concentrate on it. Now I’ve got a lot to go and I am preparing for ritual. I love the whole pomp and ceremony of a special candle from a special friend. I use the Temple Illuminati to talk to other Wiccan’s. Wiccans Together seemed like a children’s site this one has discussion groups and serious people talking serious magick. The current discussion is Alister Crowley and his brand of Magick. I am not into it like I should be so I politely excused myself and went my merry way. I am listening to an old Iron Maiden Record Seventh Son of a Seventh Son. I am listening to it because I love the story it tells. Yes it is a story.
I’ve met a wonderful woman named Catherine on Temple. She responds to all of my posts and I don’t write many because if I’m going to write I’m going to write a post. I am going to do the best I can to keep you all entertained. That is not easy to do. I am going to let you all go now. Please pray for my meditation on my prosperity candle. I am going to open the road and see what all of my options are. Please be safe this Labor day. I bless and hold you all dear to my heart. Brightest Blessings. Byrony.